Our little darling arrived yesterday at 09:11 and honestly I’ve never seen anything so perfect in all my life! I can’t take my eyes off of her! She came in at a wee 2.72 kgs (6lbs exactly) and 49 cm. I was in shock when they put her on my chest after delivery, she’s so small yet so perfectly formed 🙂 We haven’t made the final decision on her name yet and most of the photos are on M’s phone but I’m awake just watching her and wanted to update 🙂
The birth itself was traumatic and not at all what I’d expected and I’m still feeling overwhelmed by the whole experience, what a day!
Here’s the summary. 19/01/2015: my waters broke spontaneously at 03:30 am and I was given 24hrs to go into labour naturally. I was having contractions but they weren’t regular though increasingly unbearable. At 6:00 20/01/2015 I arrived at hospital to be induced but they found I was already 4 cm dilated so transferred me to delivery suite. Contractions were so painful at this point I was vomiting, which is very unusual for me. In the delivery suite I went straight onto gas and air, which I’m not sure if it helped much with the pain or just made me completely ‘out-of-it’. By this point I’d gone 2 nights without any sleep and just felt like a total zombie. And I knew contractions were painful but this was a pain like I’ve never felt. I was also emotional, I thought I’d be able to deal with the pain a lot better and stay calm and relaxed for the baby but I just couldn’t, I was screaming in agony. At 8:00 they examined me again, still only 4 cm. A doctor came to discuss an epidural with me, suggesting that it could be at least another 6 hrs. I was starting to consider it, despite having been fairly adamant that I wouldn’t have one. Then, it’s all a bit hazy, but some emergency button was pressed a I was completely surrounded by doctors (M counted at least 12) and before I knew it we were being prepared for an emergency C-Sec. Baby’s heart rate was dropping drastically whenever I had a contraction and they wanted her out ASAP. They examined me again and I’d gone to 8cms in just 15 mins! And just as they started to wheel me to theatre I shouted that I had the urge to push. I’m not sure if I actually did have the urge or if it was just a desperate attempt to try my hardest to get her out myself! In any case my legs were put in stirrups and I was instructed to push while they simultaneously cut me open and pulled her out with a suction cup. She was born at 09:11. M cut the cord and they put her on my chest for skin-to-skin. A definite love and first sight and we both balling our eyes out with happiness and disbelief. Baby was absolutely fine, screaming the place down! It felt like it then took forever to deliver the placenta and be stitched up. I tried not to look, but oh my God, the blood! None of it mattered anymore though. I’m still very sore and uncomfortable and an struggling to sit, stand, walk or do anything much physical! It definitely wasn’t the relaxing water birth I’d hoped for! Staff were amazing. We’ve spent the night on the ward and so should be going home today! Darling M is sleeping next to me, squeezed up on the edge of my bed. She’s been head clothes changer, nappy changer and bottle feeder and I love watching them so much! We’re not sure which features baby got from M except for her gorgeous dark hair and big eyes 🙂 Still trying to get the hang of breastfeeding but I think we’re doing well, even if nothing’s coming out yet which is why we’re topping up with formula, hopefully just for a couple of days.
So that was the first day of the rest of our lives as mums. We’re still in shock that she’s her and she’s ours! I just can’t describe how amazing it feels!