10w2d – Dating Scan!

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Today we had our “12 week scan”, also known as the “dating scan”. Firstly, they screwed up with the dates and gave me my appointment too early. I told the midwife this and she advised me to go anyway because then they’d have to give me another one at 12 weeks- two chances to see our baby! Secondly the “dating” part of the scan which means giving a more accurate due date based on the baby’s size rather than your last period, doesn’t apply to IVF pregnancies as this is always just calculated from the transfer date. So our due date remains 31st January 🙂

And WOW the change in the 10 days since we had our last scan is incredible! He now has a CRL of 31.6mm, which means he’s been growing more than a mm per day and is right on target for 10 weeks 2 days. I still have a small blood clot which was either missed in the last scan or has since reappeared but we’ve been assured that it’s nothing to worry about. And our Chicklet looks amazing, he was kicking really hard and moving a lot. We could see all of his fingers and toes. The picture doesn’t do it it justice but he looked amazing on the screen 🙂 ❤ ❤ ❤

10 Weeks Today!

We are already a quarter of the way through! We have our dating scan on Monday, which is too early for the other tests so hopefully they’ll give us another one at 12 weeks. We bought a home Doppler machine two weeks ago and have managed to find Chicklet’s heartbeat a few times for a couple of seconds but today we found it straight away, it was so clear and it stayed there for a while. 148bpm 🙂 and looks like baby is now moving up from my pelvis! We’re so in love!

8w6d- Our Gorgeous Little Wriggly (Reassurance Scan)

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After our little scare at the viability scan we had at the clinic 11 days ago, we went to EPU (Early Pregnancy Unit) after our GP fortunately referred me, today. I wasn’t sure if they would scan me, as I had no actual bleeding but luckily they didn’t turn me away and this time everything was PERFECT!!! Look at our little baby (we secretly took a photo of!)! He (we’re referring to him/her as a he even though we have absolutely no preference, just a feeling he’s a boy) looks completely different to last time! Last time he was just a little blob with a heart half his size, now he has an actual head and body and little arms!! He was wriggling around like crazy and his heart is beating beautifully! He has a CRL of 19.6mm which is still a little behind but nothing to worry about and more importantly the bleeding around the sac has all disappeared! It must have been absorbed by my body, it’s such a relief! We are just so in love right now!

Aside from that, I am feeling sicker than ever. Constant deep nausea ALL day long. And I’m soooo exhausted! Oh, and my GP rang me up while I was eating lunch with my friends to tell me that I have thrush (apparently common in pregnancy)- charming!! But I’m genuinely grateful for all of this now that I know that baby is doing so well 🙂 One thing I’m not grateful for is the stupid cold I got from work due to the air con making it like working inside a bloody fridge 😦 But tomorrow is London Pride so I’m hoping we can at least go along and watch the parade! Happy Friday 🙂

7w6d- The Magical Heartbeat!

This post has taken a while to be written because it has been an emotional week. On Monday we had our early scan at 7w2d and last appointment at the fertility clinic. The scan revealed the following: I AM pregnant with ONE baby and that baby has a healthy heartbeat of 138 bpm, which is fantastic news!! I guess it wasn’t in our destiny to have twins and we mustn’t be disappointed. We were thrilled to hear the heartbeat and we could see it flickering away too- it’s absolutely incredible 🙂

The doctor performing the scan wasn’t particularly helpful though. She told me to take it easy because I have some Subchorionic collections (blood clots) and the baby is measuring 3 days smaller than it should. I have already been taking it really easy and we left the clinic feeling pretty upset. Since then I have seen a midwife and GP and M has been reading up a lot about these blood clots and we feel a lot more relaxed. Firstly, the clots are really small 10-15mm and apparently quite normal, especially with IVF, secondly I haven’t actually had any bleeding and thirdly, the baby has a really good heartbeat!

Wednesday I had my “booking-in” appointment with the midwife. This is essentially about filling out paperwork, going through medical history (which is interesting when you’re carrying wife eggs and anon. donor’s sperm) and doing some blood tests. We were really impressed with how well we were treated as a two mum family, the midwife was really cool but we’ll have to change anyway as we’ll be moving soon.

Thursday I booked an appointment with the GP to tell her about my scan results as the clinic advised me to have another scan 10-14 days later to see if baby has caught up and blood clots are disappearing. She gave me a referral to the Early Pregnancy Unit but can’t guarantee they’ll actually scan me as the treatment was private and this is not considered an emergency. As she says, if the baby’s not growing and the blood clots worsen, there’s not actually anything they can do. But, I’ll hope for the scan just for reassurance.

We already feel so proud of our Chicklet and just pray that s/he’ll stay strong in there!

5+5 weeks. Just waiting…

5+5 weeks. Just waiting...

I never realised how slowly time goes in early pregnancy and how that first scan seems like an eternity away. Even though we’re having a scan at 7 weeks with our clinic and most people have to wait for the standard 12 week scan. I guess it’s because when ever you find out that someone is pregnant, the next minute their bump is showing and it’s all a big sudden surprise. You don’t realise the slow and agonising wait they’ve already gone through, not knowing if everything is as it it should be, worrying about all their symptoms and what they should or should not be feeling, it’s quite a lonely experience but overwhelmingly exciting at the same time!

So far the only people that know are M’s sister and occupational health at my work. And I haven’t been to work for two weeks now because my GP requested amended duties and work haven’t sorted that out yet. It’s great to not have to worry about occupational health hazards but doing nothing at home every day (in our tiny box of a flat) is so boring and makes the days go so much slower! And all I can think about is whats happening inside me!!

Symptoms have increased this week. I feel constantly sick and still cramping and getting back pain. Not to mention extreme tiredness- and I’m not even doing anything!

We took the last pregnancy test this morning and got the celebrated “3+” result. We’re are really really wishing for twins but are just ecstatic to be pregnant!

Week 5 development

Week 5 development

“You won’t look pregnant at this point but already your baby’s tiny heart has begun to beat and pump blood. The heart is dividing into chambers and will find a more regular rhythm soon. Your baby is about a quarter of a centimetre long and looks more like a tadpole than a human being. He’ll have a growth spurt this week – the first of many!

He’s busily growing all his major organs, including the kidneys and liver. His intestines are developing and the appendix is in place. The neural tube, which connects his brain and spinal cord, will close this week.

All these internal developments are matched by changes on the outside, too. The buds that will grow into your baby’s arms and legs begin to sprout. And below the opening that will later form your baby’s mouth, small folds exist where the neck and the lower jaw eventually develop.”

4+3 weeks. GP visit and sick bird!

Yesterday: I called in sick at work for the second day because on my last shift I was feeling really dizzy and completely exhausted and then got an appointment to see the GP. Before I went I rang the clinic to tell them of my positive pregnancy test and they booked me in for my 7 week scan, which will be the last of my treatment package with them. They told me to continue all my medication until twelve weeks, which is annoying because they have rubbish side effects but brilliant if they keep baby sticky!!

The GP appointment went well. She referred me to the midwife and booked my 12 week scan but we’ll probably have to cancel anyway as we’ll have hopefully moved into our new home by then in Sussex and will need to re-register. We received a pregnancy pack with a book that will have all my notes in, birth plans etc and some magazines. I also got my maternity exemption certificate meaning that I won’t have to pay for NHS prescriptions or dental care and she even wrote me a prescription for free Pregnacare (Folic acid, vit D etc) vitamins! The main bonus was that after telling her about my job; driving 3 hours and standing 10-12 hours, starting in the middle of the night etc, she wrote me a letter for work stating that I need to do “office based work” for the next 4 weeks! It feels strange asking for special adaptions at work so early on but at the same time, this is the most vulnerable time in pregnancy and I don’t want to risk problems because of my job, which is exhausting enough when not pregnant. I think when we move closer to the airport and also after I’ve had the first scan it’ll be easier. I emailed work with the letter but haven’t heard anything so I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing on Saturday when I’m next due on shift. 

Today: Booked an appointment at the vet for Buddy (budgie) as he’s been increasingly unwell 😦 He still can’t put weight on his foot after the accident on egg collection day and his eyes keep sticking shut. The vet quickly diagnosed him with a respiratory infection and gave us two lots of antibiotics which we need to give him in a syringe every day. This’ll be more challenging than giving M her injections! The rest of his nail also broke off when the vet was holding him and started bleeding again. The vet cauterised it so hopefully it’ll heal now. Poor bird, I really hope he’ll recover. He’s very special and we’re very attached to him ❤

 

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Sitting on the mirror- he’d do it all day if he could but we cover it up otherwise he becomes too attached to himself! 

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Buddy as a baby 🙂

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11 DPT: Exciting times!

I have stayed clear from posting in this two-week-wait for fear of somehow jinxing it! (Sounds a little irrational I know!) But now I feel ready, we’re in a good place 🙂

I work shifts, took 4 days off and along with my actual days off, managed to have two weeks off from work in which I have not lifted a finger and just sat on my butt watching TV and producing smell 🙂 My wife has been amazing, coming home from work to feed me, cooking dinner even washing me in the shower and not letting me even push/pull a door! I’ve been really careful with my diet, only eating organic, no caffeine and nothing cold! It’s been hard and sounds crazy but we’d go to any length to increase our chances, even if it’s just by the tiniest fraction!

This waiting has been SO difficult! It’s on our minds the whole time! I’m back at work tomorrow and looking forward to the distraction but I work in a airport, I have 3am starts this week and my job is quite physical so I worry about exhausting myself. Nevertheless, I will put my pregnancy first and take it as easy as possible! It also doesn’t help that nobody in real life knows what we’re doing so my colleagues will be wondering where I was and why I’m now refusing to lift heavy bags! It’s a wonderful secret to have though 🙂

Symptoms have been coming and going. Firstly I had a lot of cramping, I’ve been constantly bloated. My boobs are sore and fuller and I started feeling nauseous about a week ago and that keeps increasing. I’m also really tired but that might be from doing nothing! Of course most of these symptoms are also side effects of the medication I’m on so I shouldn’t read too much into them!

Anyway the important part:

Our test day as advised by the clinic is on Tuesday 27th but of course we couldn’t wait that long!! In fact we’ve taken 5 tests already :-s

Test 1: 6DPT= negative (of course! way too early!). We were still disappointed, now we understand why people tell you to wait!

Test 2: 9DPT= negative (still too early)

Test 3: 9DPT, evening- wife has a good feeling and tells me to take another test even though it’s the same day. There is a really really really faint second line, that you can just about see if you look at it from an angle and under a bright light!

Test 4: 10DPT, again there is a really really faint second line but it’s slightly easier to see than the test before.

Test 5: 11 DPT (this morning). Second line is still really faint but it’s definitely there! You can see it from any angle and even from an arms length distance! See below, you can see it can’t you?!

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I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant……. so watch this space….!!