10w2d – Dating Scan!

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Today we had our “12 week scan”, also known as the “dating scan”. Firstly, they screwed up with the dates and gave me my appointment too early. I told the midwife this and she advised me to go anyway because then they’d have to give me another one at 12 weeks- two chances to see our baby! Secondly the “dating” part of the scan which means giving a more accurate due date based on the baby’s size rather than your last period, doesn’t apply to IVF pregnancies as this is always just calculated from the transfer date. So our due date remains 31st January 🙂

And WOW the change in the 10 days since we had our last scan is incredible! He now has a CRL of 31.6mm, which means he’s been growing more than a mm per day and is right on target for 10 weeks 2 days. I still have a small blood clot which was either missed in the last scan or has since reappeared but we’ve been assured that it’s nothing to worry about. And our Chicklet looks amazing, he was kicking really hard and moving a lot. We could see all of his fingers and toes. The picture doesn’t do it it justice but he looked amazing on the screen 🙂 ❤ ❤ ❤

5+5 weeks. Just waiting…

5+5 weeks. Just waiting...

I never realised how slowly time goes in early pregnancy and how that first scan seems like an eternity away. Even though we’re having a scan at 7 weeks with our clinic and most people have to wait for the standard 12 week scan. I guess it’s because when ever you find out that someone is pregnant, the next minute their bump is showing and it’s all a big sudden surprise. You don’t realise the slow and agonising wait they’ve already gone through, not knowing if everything is as it it should be, worrying about all their symptoms and what they should or should not be feeling, it’s quite a lonely experience but overwhelmingly exciting at the same time!

So far the only people that know are M’s sister and occupational health at my work. And I haven’t been to work for two weeks now because my GP requested amended duties and work haven’t sorted that out yet. It’s great to not have to worry about occupational health hazards but doing nothing at home every day (in our tiny box of a flat) is so boring and makes the days go so much slower! And all I can think about is whats happening inside me!!

Symptoms have increased this week. I feel constantly sick and still cramping and getting back pain. Not to mention extreme tiredness- and I’m not even doing anything!

We took the last pregnancy test this morning and got the celebrated “3+” result. We’re are really really wishing for twins but are just ecstatic to be pregnant!

Week 5 development

Week 5 development

“You won’t look pregnant at this point but already your baby’s tiny heart has begun to beat and pump blood. The heart is dividing into chambers and will find a more regular rhythm soon. Your baby is about a quarter of a centimetre long and looks more like a tadpole than a human being. He’ll have a growth spurt this week – the first of many!

He’s busily growing all his major organs, including the kidneys and liver. His intestines are developing and the appendix is in place. The neural tube, which connects his brain and spinal cord, will close this week.

All these internal developments are matched by changes on the outside, too. The buds that will grow into your baby’s arms and legs begin to sprout. And below the opening that will later form your baby’s mouth, small folds exist where the neck and the lower jaw eventually develop.”

Day 15 & 16. It all happened all of a sudden!

Day 15 & 16. It all happened all of a sudden!

Monday:

This was two days post egg collection. We spent the whole day attempting to do a mortgage application, which seems to be impossible at the moment, which worries us as the longer it takes, the more chance we have of losing the house 😦

And then we spent the whole evening, Googling about how to convince the clinic that we want two embryos transferred, which is notoriously difficult thanks to the ‘one-at-a-time’ policy that the government is trying to implement.

We knew that the embryologist would phone the following morning to update us on how our six embryos were doing, but we were still convinced we wouldn’t be going in for the transfer until Thursday- day 5.

Tuesday:

08:20, the embryologist phones with the update. Out of the 6 embryos, only 2 had developed fast enough to make it to blastocysts/day 5. Those 2 had 8 and 9 cells and the remaining were; 2x 5 cells, 1 with 4 cells and 1 with 3 cells. They gave us a choice; either have 2 embryos transferred at day 3 (the same day) or 1 on day 5. However, despite the one-at-a-time policy they actually recommended the first option because even thought they had a lot of cells, they were still grade 2 (as some cells were fragmented). So before we knew it, we were off to the clinic for an unexpected transfer!

This whole journey has been a real eye-opener for us. We went into it so naively. We really thought that because we are still (just) under 30, are healthy and have no known fertility problems, that it would be a walk in the park. That we would get loads of healthy embryos and have all of the siblings from frozen ones (we want a big family). It hasn’t been like that at all. First we thought that 18 eggs was bad, then we accepted it was fine. But then only 6 fertilised, which was still okay. But then to hear that only 2 of those were strong enough was upsetting. We were disappointed that we went from 18 to 2. But we need to stay positive. The remaining 4 embryos will stay until Friday (day 6), to see if they develop enough to be frozen, so there’s still hope for them. And even more exciting is that, while I’m sitting here typing this, the two strongest are inside me, hopefully becoming a pregnancy! 🙂

Here’s a summary of the transfer.

We went to the clinic and both put on a gown as M came in with me for the actual procedure. I then proceeded to drink 4 bottles of water to fill my bladder. We went into the same room that M had her eggs collected in. The embryologist came in to confirm the plan. And then they started. A speculum was inserted and then they cleaned the cervix with something and the embryologist came in with the embryos in a long thin tube and we watched them being inserted via ultrasound. I can’t remember the exact details as it all happened so quickly and we didn’t know where to look exactly, it was quite confusing! The worst part for me is that it was SO uncomfortable! Firstly was the fact that, although I was used to opening my legs frequently for scans, there’s nothing quite like opening your legs, having your vagina opened wider than you knew it could go, then the bed being raised to eye-level and then having a massive light shining right at it!! But worse than that was having a completely full bladder at the same time, not being able to squeeze tight and having the ultrasound pressing right on it!! I have to admit that my concentration was wasted on trying not to wet myself in the embryologists face rather than what should have been a magical moment! It was the absolute opposite to relaxing! Afterwards I kept asking them if they had put the embryos in the right place, as if me trying to control my bladder had somehow blocked them. They assured me they had 🙂

And fortunately we got a picture to show for it! Our first scan photo! The embryos are difficult to see but they are roughly where I’ve circled it. We love this photo so much!

After the transfer I lied down for an hour in the recovery room. They told us we would be fine to go but we just wanted to be safe. And then we got a taxi all the way home. So weird to be watching all the tourists and workers of central London going about their daily lives when we’ve just done such an amazing thing!

Since then I’ve been on bed rest with M running about doing everything, amazing woman! Of course I’m capable of getting on as normal but we just don’t want to take any tiny chances at all.

This two-week-wait is going to be the hardest part now!

Day 11 & 12. No more injections!!

Day 11 & 12. No more injections!!

Day 11: 18:30, M has last Gonal-F and Orgalutron injections. 21:30 (sharp!) M has the trigger injection Buserilin!!

Day 12: Rest day, no more drugs for M, just the most important part tomorrow, egg collection!

I’m really proud of my wife for having had all these injections, they’ve made her feel pretty crappy too. Just praying for a successful collection tomorrow! I’ll write all about it.